Girl, It's 2019. Get Your S*** Together and Keep it Together

      So, it seems as if I blinked ONCE and we are five, I repeat, FIVE months into this year. Where the heck did this time go? It is currently May 15, 2019 at 10pm and I am sitting in my living room thinking about how things could be so much better if I get my s*** together, and keep it together. Excuse my language but that is exactly how I feel right now. I feel like I tend to have spurts of being productive and getting things done, then the moment I feel like I'm doing too much between my day job and trying to enjoy my personal life, I tend to let my blog and YouTube channel fall to the wayside. 

     Now don't get me wrong, I love my job. I am currently a manager/social media manager at my job and it's really fun. The only thing is, when I feel like I'm slacking with my personal social media, how can I feel motivated or creative enough to manage one for my store? I'm constantly second-guessing whether or not my content is good enough or will appeal to our target audience. Once I get these thoughts into my head, I just decide not to post and my social media AND the store's end up staying stagnant. Which makes me feel like crap. I know it's okay to take breaks sometimes, but this was way more than a break because I WANTED to post, I just wouldn't make time in my day to allow myself to create. It was just all bad. 

     I'm not in school, I don't think I'm handling too much, so I have no excuse not to get things done. I just genuinely have to stop doubting myself and stop comparing myself to what I see other content creators doing. Plain and simple. This post is my reminder to dedicate time to doing what I love and not letting anything get in the way of accomplishing my dreams. Not my self doubt, not my laziness, NOTHING. Hard work and dedication is the only way I am going to get where I want to be. 

    Today, I went to the store and bought myself a brand new notebook and some pens; this is so I could begin to properly jot down my ideas, plans, and goals. The best way to ensure that something comes into fruition is to manifest it through writing. I'll be able to keep track of what I want to write or record, I'll be able to properly see me get things accomplished, and I think it will be rewarding to watch myself improve on paper. This is my reminder to stop making excuses, and start achieving goals. It's 2019 and time is not slowing down. Girl, get your s*** together, and KEEP IT TOGETHER.